Well it is extremely late and I couldnt sleep if you paid me to fall asleep. I have so many thoughts running through my mind. Tomorrow I move in to start of my senior year...too bad I am not sure if I am ready to celebrate senior year like most people tend to be. I got a late start on this whole 'real' college experience thing and boy would I give to get that one year I missed because the past two years have been the best years of my life, hands down and I know that this year will only surpass those.
I laugh because at the beginning of last year I already dreaded the thought of this one because I had many friends who were going to graduate and go into the real world without me. Now I am at the point where I go into the real world by myself, seeing that I dont know anyone graduating with me on time, and leave all my younger friends behind. I say that not in that I am at all worried about them continuing their adventures at the Webb but I worry about life without them all. Currently, can not even imagine it and really just dont want it to happen. In my mind I see us all doing really awesome things in our lives but at least within an hour distance of each other...crazy right?? haha Yea...I know. Working on being ok with the thought that, that will probably never happen...at least not in recreating a whole hall of girls totaling about 18 or something, but I can dream big right?
It is also official, I am becoming that senior that worries about life ahead of them. What do I do next becomes the big question for us all? I think I have too many questions such as, what am I do doing? Where am I doing it? When do I do it? How the heck am I going to do it? You know...basic things :) Amy Brown and I recently were trying to find a place out in the real world for me and her conclusion was, I wasnt a real person and was a college kid forever, she's funny right? Although in the back of my mind I couldnt disagree much. I have always been a super random person, I love a lot of things, different things and I dont really have a specific passion for anything. I see people who are super passionate about sports and go that way, or super passionate about a subject in school and master it, but lucky me likes a lot of things but never could really zone in on one or two things...I would be lucky to make a list of 6 different things I really liked.
Take a step out of real life finding a career scenario and you will find me on the next flight to Ireland finding my husband, making him speak and hopefully sing and play the guitar to me all the time, and then have lots of kids. Yea... again I can dream big right. I can say that I am fully passionate about becoming a mom...good thing the Lord has yet to bless me with a husband to get that rolling.
Anyways I will stop there with all the baby stuff, every one laughs at me about it but I couldnt be more serious and they know it. Glad I started this blog in a complete panic about my life and now will go to bed laughing at myself for wanting little Irish babies. Maybe it will happen in the next 8 or so months and my life will become real easy haha...total understatement, I know. Ahhh...just want to figure out my life so I can enjoy one phase and nicely transition to the next.
Who am I kidding? Not a real person, college kid forever.
GOODNIGHT!
