The reason I titled this finding a purpose is because I am currently trying to find my path again and have been struggling greatly. School has started back which has been great because I love the community of people it comes with BUT...yea there is a "but" school itself is not a passion of mine. Of course if we are honest with ourselves, who really likes school? Very few people, too bad I am not one of those people. I hate school! I've had plenty of discussions with people about not liking school and not really seeing its purpose for me, yes, I know I get a degree but thats when I say, is that it?? Because society says so, we must attend school, walk across a stage 4 years later, receive a slip of paper, be a lucky one who gets a job, and fulfills our duties as adults. Ok, maybe its a bit dramatic but think about it....
With that I am not trying to really find my purpose in school because I know I have a purpose on this campus and to be honest how much I like school or not is irrelevant many, many years later and tons of money being spent...I'll make it count, no worries. SO...on a grander scale, I am looking more for my purpose in Gods kingdom...I've spent days wishing I was not at school anymore, feeling very unhappy, and just kind of 'stuck' in a weird cycle. What does God have planned for me in all this? What is He trying to teach me?
Fun fact: I really really hate when I dont know things, do you see my predicament? Haha but seriously... I guess I am trying to see where God is trying to place me in order to serve as intended. Since I have been back at school, there have been changes in different places and some that just break my heart to be quite frank and trying to grow from these changes has been a challenge BUT I am trying so a little bit of credit is needed.
Anyways this is just my thoughts tumbling out of my head...I dont know what else to do with them. Goodnight!
